The unknown movements of the emotions

I was just staring at some stripes of the sunset before… some minutes ago … and the sudden movement~thinking has been…: how many moments get lost while we are occupied to act by pressures of any sort, running as vassels of schizzofrenia in our mind…

how many things we don’t see, sense, listen~feel~think just because there is always something more important going on there in the direction/s we feel

oppressed by that is always asking for our presence, attention or “responsability” of any sort in the impulsive act on things.. that is not allowing our own spaces~times sensing of~on things…

because that would be just your own “imagination”, or “romanticism” … something for “art or artists” or whatever else that needs to be labeled by the mind of the many as those because if not the sudden cease of consensus…. on the collapsing happening of fears manifesting within the unknown movements of the emotions …. and thus thinking too …

this is in~deed the first movement of highest kind of violence people consciously or less consciously do all the time toward themselves first and of course toward everything else…

it’s the first movement toward the own deception of the alive~be~ing…

that it’s not made by physical ‘hands’, but by the other much more physical ‘hands’ that we have running inside all the time as wild horses … the thoughts.. the made-up impulsive ones…

never took in consideration by the eye of feeling thinking movement because it would take too much times~spaces~feelings~thinking therefore a very huge weight of fears too to face toward them…

this in-deed the reason of conflicts: the self tolerance, thus: self violence