Watching the window world

Dear Esther,

All this follow the heart and love, light stuff is taking you further away… What is it really?

You said, “Heart and mind work together to give us the possibility of creating an individual reality…”

Heart: organ, Brain: organ, Mind: that which thinks, experiences; You…

Fables and Myths have there place as object lessons… Joseph did a great job in collecting and connecting them… Confusion is a product of mankind: You, me, everyone here and in the past… can an individual reality exist?

Can I create a place, a seperate reality within reality? How do we make sense of ideas like this… For as long as there has been people here there has been these attempts to escape what is… Why? What’s so wrong in reality that we need so desperately to find a way out? Consider that it were possible and someone accomplished it… then what would they have? Wouldn’t they bring the source of their confusion with them into the new place?

There are two prominent things going on with us that we’re conscious of: there is experience; and our memory of experience… Out of memory we get fears, ideas, teaching, confusion, thoughts that come as language and the feelings generated from all that… Out of pure (un filtered) experience we get what? If we named it we’d fuck it up… but you’ve had it…

We have it when we sit in the sunbeam and gaze out a window, in the warmth we notice the lighted dust and the tiny spider on the sill, we takein the smell of summer and birds moving outside, and we stop, for a moment we do nothing, are nothing, without past or future… everything just is… There is no need there… and we did nothing to get there…

Perhaps I’ll see you there…