I see this trend at the End Of Fear’s facebook group recently… There was the post about men preferring shock to solitude… and this, “There is the silence between one noise and another…”, and a repost of Orientation #28 – “…the labyrinth has never been real…”
I noticed, a while back, a movement in myself to be “Doing something…”. An urge… that something needs to be happening… anything… the computer, the video, the project… Anything but nothing… Nothing happening leaves only us
It’s not just that clone we see setting in the chair choosing electric shock over solitude… it’s not just men… and it’s not new… I do think it’s becoming more wide spread, more common, as we move into more and more technologies… Doing stuff, seeing stuff, going from event to event… with no space in between… is addictive
It’s not new… I’ve always been close to girls and when there’s something uncomfortable going on in their heads, they’ll clean, they’ll weed, Cook, go to the store… Coerce the bystander into giving them some physical attention.
If we opt for silence we’ll often think, “I should meditate…”, that’s still doing something… Maybe we see ourselves going to the forest, the river, and being quiet… for a while maybe this feels good… some say, “I could stay like this, here in this place, forever”, really? …alone? with no laptop?
There’s something uncomfortable going on in our heads… there must be… why else would we go to such lengths to avoid being alone with our thoughts? I may be better at being alone than most… I’ve spent months locked in a box… But trust me, as soon as that lock clicked open I was looking for something to do.
If we can stop… Stop seeking activity. Stop doing, stop thinking about doing… Stop flipping switches, turning things on, turning things up… Stop texting, talking, planning… Stop going… Just Stop! If we can just stop… Maybe we’ll find out what we’re running from… What makes us so uncomfortable