Your identity is filtering reality

Into The Darkness

It is, indeed, the act of identification in our identity, the use and abuse of our identity as the filter to see reality, that creates the human confusion. This psychological, then social, mechanics of the mind is the place where confusion lies, grows and springs out constantly.

Here’s the equation: I’m curious… being a kid… overflowing of imagination and creativity like a little kitty… I move along the path of my curious discovery which has no authority at all, nor competition, nor urge of success of any kind, and sooner or later I come across someone and into a system in general who tells me that I have to become someone.. that I have to build up something.

They tell us that that’s supposed to be that ambiguous thing they call ‘responsibility’… Then I exchange curiosity with learning… and by learning, learning, learning and learning and learning and learning …over and over and over and over but without understanding (learning is not understanding)… I finally come to adopt a model of thinking, the sum of which is exclusively to deal in the perennial need to preserve my identity..

Curiosity is dead… Identity governs…

Creativity, the purpose of which is evolution of intelligence, becomes the need to protect and preserve the drug of self-esteem… which is absolute and constant dependency from society and from what the others think and say about us and how the man-manufactured ‘normality’ sees us outwardly… and how we see ourselves through the filter of that normality …inwardly

I’m not succeeding… therefore I want to succeed.. otherwise I’m a loser… This means that now I’m confused… right?

Therefore I spend a tremendous amount of energies to succeed… whatever the goal and the ambition is…

Then in case of failure I remain confused (even more)… and in case of success then I automatically develop the fear to lose the successful position, goal, ambition or whatever you will …that I achieved… and, again. In fear and protectiveness because of fear… what I have again is again confusion…

Confusion is not really a defection of our personality… it doesn’t comes because we are more sensitive than others… or because some silly-bully mind told us that we are inferior, incapable. Confusion comes from the act of thinking through the “I” which is merely our identitarian psychological picture (the identification with our identity which is the assassin of our intelligent evolution) then applied socially.

Identification is confusion itself. As long I identify myself with my identity… what I have in return from this existential behavior is and it will always be confusion.

Please realize that each time we say “I want… I think… I am” we speak through language and that’s ok (it’s language)… but each time we think “I want… I think… I am” then we think through the language… through the intellectualization… through the verbalization of life… and through identification… therefore that’s not exactly thinking… but rather thinking through our identity.

Inexorably this will always lead to confusion… and then, obviously, to separation, fights and fear… within and outward…

You see how difficult it is for our minds to be attentive in this, to be free to inquire and investigate radically into the darkness of its conditionings?

This happens because the process of thinking dominated by the act of identification, whether if made by the constant rapture made by the past, or the ghost of social comparison, or all idiotic ideals (that are all idiotic indeed) or the searching for positivity, happiness, abundance whatsoever, self-esteem, ‘spiritual realms’ of the mind or the ‘heaven of ultimate knowledge’ we call ‘the truth’ … or what you will…

…the act of identification, the condition to be ruled by all of those things… is eternal psychological dependency and wherever dependency shapes the thinker… then the thinker sleeps in a dark, millenary and individual, confused dream… which so often turns into a nightmare (as the human history suggests)…

Have you some idea on what I’m talking about…? Please do not focus yourself on the speaker… which is absolutely irrelevant…
but rather focus yourself in the possibility to establish a personal act of radical and profound understanding regarding this content: we are not co-sharing these things motivational… nor philosophically… that’s simply the life we are doing!

We are talking about life itself!

Do you understand?

Get rid of all escapes, all act of pride, honor, need to say something but having nothing to say… interrupt all verbalization’s and the need to ride words, notions, knowledge, needs of arguing (otherwise we will end up in that silly situation in which we will talk over the other)… get rid of all of these things and delve fully and privately into the darkness of confusions.. realizing that as human being without the thinker you are in a circumstance of confusion…

No need to resist, no need to forgive, no need to regret and no need to blame yourself… but please… before taking any action .. it’s there where you have to inquire…

Into the darkness!